Dena
03-29-2001, 06:23 PM
Thank you so much for all your input about my husband and me. Apart of me wishes our marriage could be saved, that fairy tales can come true. I guess we both just fell out of love with one another. He told me that he loved me, but wasn't in love with me. I talked to a priest about what I should do, (I am not Catholic). He told me that it sounded like I had done everything possible to save our marriage. The doctors have told my husband he has got to learn to stand on his own feet, so that is how it will end. I have so many emotions right now, I think about the bad times so I won't hurt, and I almost want to try to meet other people, but I am scared. I am leaving someone that has had a mental depression problem. I wish that I could have fixed us, I am use to do that. I am dreading the weekends, just because I had someone to be with. We were so comfortable together, obviously to comfy. Someone asked me if this was for the best, I guess it is. Loving someone who is destructive is so hard, just being away from him a little while I feel not so hopeless like maybe I am worth something. My main goal is to find another job this Fall, I tell ya when it rains it pours... this month has been so hard no anniversary, deciding to divorce, and no funds to keep my job. I am scared, I know it will get better. I prayed for change and now I am getting it. My friends say they can see light at the end my tunnel. My husband never hit me, but yelled at me, cussed me, and couldn't keep a job. I know I am not the first to go through a divorce, but I am feeling so many emotions I am truly overwhelmed. Thanks for listening and for the prayers and hugs. I always feel better after I get this off my chest. I promise I am a nice person and I am usually very happy.