Dena
04-07-2001, 05:25 PM
I know that this may sound strange, but I just wanted to share. My life has been really sad lately planning a divorce, even though I know it is for the best. Last night I spent the night with one of my best girl friends. It was about 12:30 and she just found out about 2 months ago that she is going to have a baby. We were talking about how much our lives have changed in the past year. Last year I was praying for a baby, now we are divorcing. Anyway I mentioned how someone on this chat board had mentioned that their sister had been through a similar situation and that 6 months later she met her husband and later had a baby. This toy of my friend's son said YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG! Yes the toy talks when you push hard on it, but it was in the bathroom sink with no one around. It took us a minute to realize what was happening, and we both started crying. I am always in prayer and I feel like this was a sign to me. My husband met me to give me the divorce papers he had copied from someone else, it hurt, but I kept thinking you have to be strong. Please pray for me, I want to be treated so much better than I have been and now I am beginning to realize I deserve it. I love my husband, but I have to love me, and not let myself be mistreated. I am so scared that I will never trust any guy or that I will never find a true love but I have to take life one day at a time and try not to worry about my future. First I have to find a job teaching for the fall, because my husband moved me from a job I loved and now I am teaching somewhere else. I love teaching their but because of budget cuts, I am being cut because I was the last one hired. My old boss says I am second up for a job that means two people must leave. Please keep me in your prayers! I truly believe God has better things planned for me.