Feeling bummed out and sorry for myself right now! Went to a new orthopedic surgeon today about my knee... looks like more surgery is in my future... I feel like screaming, but yet I want to be optimistic and believe this time will fix it. I told him I didn't want a miracle, just want to feel 31, not 71. He said my knee cap is sitting at a weird angle and the surgery I had in Jan of '01 didn't really help. Lovely! All that pain and suffering for nothing! Anyway, I really liked this doc and a runner friend recommended him b/c she had 2 runner friends who thought they'd had everything possible done and would have to live with their problem forever.. until they went to this doc.
The one upside... paid short-term disability from work!! woo hoo!!!!
The blue million downsides... being out of commission for quite a while... he's going to be moving part of the bone below my knee cap and attaching it with screws to keep me knee cap where it should be... no weight baring for 6 weeks aaacckkk! With the other surgeries, weight bearing was encouraged to promote strengthening the muscles.
My parents have always been amazing in helping out with dd through the 4, yes 4, surgeries I've had since she was born, but I don't want to put them out.
I live in a 2-story house.... there's no shower downstairs, or I'd just move my mattress into the den and campout! I could make it up the stairs after a week or so, with the cruches, but there's always that chance of re-injury by falling, etc.
Next, do I want to spend my summer recovering.. not only infringing on my fun, but more importantly, dd's. I think I'm going to wait until after the summer... someone tell me that's a good idea!!! I'm not in excrutiating pain, so I'm sure I can last the summer....
I guess I'm nervous... I don't want anymore surgery, but I don't want my life and activities to be affected by this problem anymore.
Thanks for being a sounding board! I've got some serious thinking to do this weekend... heavy man!!